Monday, May 15, 2017

I messed up...

So somewhere in this whirlwind of a year I have yet again let my blog slip and I have messed up big time. You know when you can just feel like something is missing but you just aren't sure what it is until one day you're just living life and then BAM it hits you? yeah... same. It just hit me today that I have been missing such a crucial part of my life by not blogging. I have been missing my outlet of creativity and also getting a chance to talk with you guys. It has been a little over 5 months since my last post on my blog and I have FELT IT believe me! So many new and exciting  yet terrifying things have been happening in my life and I haven't felt the same without being able to share it with you all! so, let's sit down together and have a catch up on everything that has been going on the last few months.

What have I been up to since January? Well, for the first time ever I have moved out of my family home and into a beautiful apartment with two of my best friends. When I tell you this has been one of the single best decisions of my life I don't know that you would truly be able to believe me but it has. I have learned so much more about who I am as a person and I have also been able to spread my wings and take a fun journey into REAL adulthood for the first time in my life. I want to expand on this in a separate post but for now just know that it is truly fantastic. Now I know some of you may be thinking... wow....27 is a little late to be just learning these things Jessica.... but I feel like 27 was just the right year in my life for this step of my journey. As some of you who know me will remember in 2013 I lost my dad to a massive heart attack very unexpectedly and it left just me and my mom on our own for the first time ever and it didn't feel like the right timing to leave her because... well... we both needed each other so much during that time to heal and grow and lean on. Looking back now, I learned so much about my mom and who she is as a person through being able to still live with her in my adulthood like that. I know people say it all the time but my mom is my best friend and closest confidant and I attribute that to sharing such a great loss and learning to navigate through it as well as being able to live with her while being an adult and sharing memories and stories with her that I otherwise never would have. Going through such a huge tragedy together really strengthened our bond and trust with one another and it made me cherish our time together so much more in a way that I know I took for granted before. So I know that when Patrick and Booker started talking to me about wanting to move out of their current living situation and into a house/apartment and that they were looking for a roommate it was the right time to take the chance and jump. As I said before, I want to do a whole post about this later so I will save most of the good stories for that time but just know I am so happy with where I am and I attribute a lot of it to living with my two best friends.

They say that the wheel of fortune takes turns with joy and sadness and for me the last few months that has rang very true. As some of you may know as soon as I moved out it was like a light switch flipped and all of a sudden my mom's health took a turn. I don't want to go into depth of the deep fear and sadness I went through with this but just know it was a very trying time for me as my mom was in and out of the hospital until they finally figured out her heart needed some major repairs. At the beginning of last month she had major heart surgery and had 5 bypasses and a valve replacement. She was in the Cardiac ICU for a few days (which were some of the scariest days of my life) and within a week of being out of the ICU she hit all of her recovery steps and was able to go home. She is still recovering now and can only do small things like walking and resting but she is getting stronger by the day and her doctors think in possibly 3 months she will be able to be fully recovered and go back to work and her normal schedule. It has been a very stressful few months of not knowing and then finally getting answers but I am so very proud of my mom for going through such a scary surgery and proving to everyone just how strong I knew she was. Through that major down point of fear and stress I was truly shown just how many people love and care for my family and my mother. Everyone gathered around us and surrounded us with so much love and positivity and I know that is one of the reasons she was able to make such a vast improvement and to everyone who was there I am forever indebted to your kindness and love.

On top of these two huge life moments I decided to take another huge step two months ago that aligns with my last post from January about wanting to become happier and healthier. I decided, after months of pestering from Booker, to try Thrive. Now, I know some of you are skeptics and think that this product is another one of those pyramid schemes but hear me out on this one... this stuff.... is AMAZING. I really didn't believe it for myself even though I lived with someone who swore by it... I was a skeptic too until he finally told me to 'just do it for a month and if you hate it you can stop.' Y'all.... when I tell you that in that month I became a believer... just WOW! I have been on thrive now for almost two months and the difference in energy I have is astounding! I also find myself eating less because it is suppressing my appetite as well as just making me feel GOOD. Thrive for those of you who are unfamiliar is  a system that uses all natural vitamins and supplements that your body needs to improve everything from weight management to cognitive performance...digestive and immune support to healthy joint function... lean muscle support to antioxidant support.. it is just an overall body overhaul to being a happier and healthier you. I have been telling EVERYONE I know to just give it a try for one month and feel the difference like I have because trust me you will become a believer! It is crazy! If you want more information just google Thrive by Le-Vel or you can go to my link ( I don't want to make it seem like I'm selling to you guys but I am telling you just how much of an impact it has made on my life already and I want you to see how it can do the same for you!

I have had so many other ups and downs the last few months that I am sure I will delve into in other upcoming posts but for now,  I think those are the three biggest changes I have seen. 27 has been a very roller coaster year for me already and I can't wait to see what the rest of this year has in store!

What are some things that have been going on with you the last few months? Tell me about it, let's catch up! Comment below or tweet me! Can't wait to hear from you!

Until next week XOXO